Making Wudu After Trying to End Your Life
Elizabeth Shanaz
Poetry

How silly to wash the

very feet that

loathed another

step

But Allah says walk

to me and I will run to

you

I don't know of a return route

from the well of

hopelessness

Allah says I am still a believer

Watch the runoff circle the drain

Allah promises even this I will

forget, one day

I really did end that life.

A new one begins here

Water pebbles down the forearm

like falling dates

Maryam begged to end her life, too

Don't cry so hard, you just

washed

out all that snot

And Maryam is among those Allah loves the most

Elizabeth Shanaz is a New York based writer. Her work has appeared in Playboy, Human/Kind, Defunkt, PREE Lit, Blood + Honey Literary Magazine, Last Stanza Poetry Journal, and the Blue Minaret, among other journals and magazines. She was nominated three times for the Best of the Net Anthology in the category of poetry. She studied writing and literature at CUNY City College before earning her law degree from NYU School of Law. She is the proud child of Guyanese immigrants.